Black Widow g2
*princess*
Well, I will let you all know what's going on... since I've been gone a while. Dunno if any of you noticed. XD
Anyway, my ex husband has been giving me grief not worth my tears, however, he still knows how to make me feel like I'm a piece of shit. That's really all I'll say about that, because it's a long story that no one wants to hear.
My grandmother was in the hospital and almost died as most of you know, but she's been sent back home and one of our family has been needing to watch her around the clock. To give my aunt a break, I had been going up there as often as I could while not working. I have been working myself to the bone... and I've found out a lot about who I am in the process. I try to not bother anyone with my problems, but that in turn makes me about die in the process. I always act like nothing's wrong or that I'm not doing anything, when usually, I'm doing too much! Basically, I find that family means more than they ever have. I think to myself 'when I'm needing someone to take care of me, I hope someone will be there' like never before. It puts a lot in perspective. My father is now having more problems than ever, same with my mom. Mysterious seizures, brain issues, diabetes, and worst off, her doctor put her on some crazy med that interacted with her seizure medication, causing her to get sick... so much so that she lost 30 lbs in 3 weeks. She wouldn't want to eat because food tasted like shit to her, literally. My father is coming up on 10 years with his bypass. He may never be able to have a replacement done because of his prior history (he has no legs, basically) so nowhere to harvest from, and the veins in his arms are not viable since the nerves and systems are slowly dying from something called 'post polio syndrome.' Either way, I'm doing my best to stay as close to them as possible and help them out. Considering my mother is not able to drive anymore, I do a lot of errands and take them places so she doesn't have a nervous breakdown. She's scared she's going to have a seizure while driving and kill herself or someone else.
As for the 'tune' of Papadakis' car, like I thought, it didn't happen, nor do I see it in the future... great opportunity that went by. Got to meet him officially though, which was neat. Let's hope he gets his car done.
Sorry for the long read, but I've been needing to vent for a long time now. Thank you HondaSwap for listening.
Anyway, my ex husband has been giving me grief not worth my tears, however, he still knows how to make me feel like I'm a piece of shit. That's really all I'll say about that, because it's a long story that no one wants to hear.
My grandmother was in the hospital and almost died as most of you know, but she's been sent back home and one of our family has been needing to watch her around the clock. To give my aunt a break, I had been going up there as often as I could while not working. I have been working myself to the bone... and I've found out a lot about who I am in the process. I try to not bother anyone with my problems, but that in turn makes me about die in the process. I always act like nothing's wrong or that I'm not doing anything, when usually, I'm doing too much! Basically, I find that family means more than they ever have. I think to myself 'when I'm needing someone to take care of me, I hope someone will be there' like never before. It puts a lot in perspective. My father is now having more problems than ever, same with my mom. Mysterious seizures, brain issues, diabetes, and worst off, her doctor put her on some crazy med that interacted with her seizure medication, causing her to get sick... so much so that she lost 30 lbs in 3 weeks. She wouldn't want to eat because food tasted like shit to her, literally. My father is coming up on 10 years with his bypass. He may never be able to have a replacement done because of his prior history (he has no legs, basically) so nowhere to harvest from, and the veins in his arms are not viable since the nerves and systems are slowly dying from something called 'post polio syndrome.' Either way, I'm doing my best to stay as close to them as possible and help them out. Considering my mother is not able to drive anymore, I do a lot of errands and take them places so she doesn't have a nervous breakdown. She's scared she's going to have a seizure while driving and kill herself or someone else.
As for the 'tune' of Papadakis' car, like I thought, it didn't happen, nor do I see it in the future... great opportunity that went by. Got to meet him officially though, which was neat. Let's hope he gets his car done.
Sorry for the long read, but I've been needing to vent for a long time now. Thank you HondaSwap for listening.
