good luck. take it as a lesson to keep you nose clean, both figuratively and litterally. I've been on the straight and narrow for about 5 yrs now. It's working for me, but there is an identity issue. I don't use anything anymore, and i have to walk away from problems now instead of solving them my old ways. I'm trying to learn to talk when people agravate me, not easy for me. It useually ends up with me saying fuck it, and walking off, but hey I havent been in leagel trouble in a few years. I can't afford it any more, I've got a good job working for the government, and if i get in leagel trouble it would cost me my job, and the way of life I've become acustom to. My son deserves better than that, so if I have to swallow my pride, then thats what i have to do. As far as staying clean that's not hard, I just kept busy, besides i've never had a problem with that if I wanted to, except for nicotine.