hey guys and gals. i normally dont post my personal problems on here but i figured that every one else here pretty much does, so i wanted to spill my guts to my friends here because i know how much you all here like to try and help others out. well, now its my turn to get some help and advice because i trust all of you all here for the best advice possible (outside of a shrink). this going to be rather long so please bear with me. 1. i found out last week that the guy i rent a room from is moving out so therefore i am forced to find another place to live or be homeless again. me and a friend of mine here named Wes have been looking al of the place for a place and have a few possibilities but no real commited place yet. its not going well because the guy i rent from has baically giving me until Nov. 1 to find a place because hes already got his new place and its kind of hard when you have no cash saved up and less than 2 weeks to find a place and get it set up. 2. i've been talking to this girl for awhile and i believe i have totally messed things up with her. i finally got up the nerve over the weekend and told her that i really liked her and wanted to go out with her. well need-less to say she was shocked and seemed flattered. ever since i have talked to her that day, she hasnt called me much or even hardly got online to talk to me. she told me that because she lives 500 miles away that it would be very hard (she lives in Virginia and i live in Indiana). and yes i have seen her before and shes hella cute. anyways, i told her to think about and to take her time and let me know what she wants to do. well since she hasnt gotten online or even called, i feel like that i scared her away and i didnt want to do that. i REALLY like her and shes is hella sweet and cool too. she is also on this site but i dont think she comes here much. what can i do? i seriously like her and i always look forward to hearing her sweet voice because she makes ME feel really good which is a very tough thing to do. 3. well most of you all know that i have no license and being that i have no license, i have to get rides from people to go anywhere..including work. this really bums me out because i like to go out and see people but i cant and i know my friends (including sleepergtx here) doesnt like to pick me up to take me out anywhere i need to go. i am the type of person that hates to depend on others because it makes me feel totally useless. i hate being stuck here and all i do is sit in my room and play on the computer every single fucking weekend and i hate it. i have no cars to work on in the driveway (yet) or the means to go out and do something. im sick of it. 4. being that i am 500 miles from not only that girl i talked above, i am also 500 miles from my family, my life and everyone that actually gives a shit about me. i really miss my family and its going to be really tough because i am not going to be able to see them again this Christmas (big event in my family). i hate not seeing them and i will again be forced to spend Christmas, not to mention Thanksgiving, by myself again this year. i hate holidays now because of not seeing my loved ones. its really depressing for those that dont know. these are basically the things that are on mind ALOT lately and i am starting to get to the point of just giving up on lots of things. i hate not seeing my family, i hate myself for screwing up things with that girl, i hate depending on others and i am damn near hating life right now. i really need help here guys and gals because i know you all can maybe offer me some good advice on what i should i do to help me out....please help. please!! and if you want cliff notes....my life sucks ass!!