Good god do I need to vent and purge my system. I've been talking and venting since Monday but I still feel like I didn't get all my feelings out and the things which I felt as though I needed to say out. I don't want to keep pouring everything out to my friends and at the same time there's only a few people I feel as though I could safely tell things. I don't want to be that emo kid or the downer because thats not who I think I am, nor who I would ever want to become. How the hell do I get everything out in a productive manner? The inability to concentrate and focus is messing with my already lackluster school work ethic. I landed one of the "Top 10 Most Sought after internship" in the nation on Wednesday and my smile is only temporary. I come crashing back down when I let my mind wander and think about things that have been getting me down.