Well, I think I fucked up, again. I'll go through the story. STOP HERE IF YOU'RE GOING TO TALK SHIT. I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT THIS TIME. I was arrested, went to jail, got out on memorial day. Of course there was a huge weekend party. I got completely trashed, I was very far from sober, I passed out later that night in a bathtub. So like any other normal party, I was trying to get some. I was trying a lot harder since I got out of jail the day beofre, I could have cared less who it was. Well I did get some, from this girl that's wanted me for a while. Despite the fact that at least 10 people kept fucking with us, walking in, knocking on the door, yelling at the door...etc, we did it anyway. This is one of the times I actually did use a condom, but it broke, I took it off and I did pull out. Well, I haven't talked to this girl until yesterday. There is defenitly a HUGE issue now, cause she's ~four months pregnant. I FUCKED up really bad, BUT there is a chance it's not mine, she was/is with this dude, he was on vacation Memorial day weekend. He doesn't know about me and her, but I asked him "Are you sure it's yours?" He said he's almost positive it's his because he slept with her a week before Memorial Day He has no idea she cheated on him. I have to deal with this. I could NEVER be with this girl, it would be asking for me to die of a heart attack or something. I don't want to hear all of "You're an idiot", "You did this XXX many times", "you deserve it". I fucked up REALLY bad this time, I already know, I've done this one too many times and this is the time I really just got to deal with it. I don't want the girl to have an abortion, not only because it's wrong but because I don't know if it's mine. I'm just stressing really hard because of this, I can't talk to anyone, my friends are idiots and think it's cool....it's not. I'm seriously ready to hit someone or something. I can't believe this is happening. Again, don't start bashing me and shit. I knwo I fucked up, I'm owning up to my very bad choices. I told her if it ends up being mine I'll take care of it. Pray for me.