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I'm lazy again.....

Discussion in 'Members' Lounge' started by Airjockie, Jul 13, 2006.

  1. Airjockie

    Airjockie Watanabe Whore!!!

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    just no spunk to do anything:(

    I wake up, go to work, bust my ass to get the aircraft done, I get home, snack and nap, wake up, post and drink...wait till it's time for bed...and go pass out to start another day.

    No working on cars, no work on the house or lawn, no cleaning up anything except a shower, and thats it. I don't know if it's that we're busy at work, or if I hit the summer lazy days...but I know I hate this crap....I want to change, but it's getting harder everyday to find something to do and to complete it....that won't drain my life away.

    These cars are starting to suck, if it's not one thing, it's another, bills pileing up, mortgages due, not making enough to stay happy, and I'm just plain tired. Maybe it might be the sex life...or the lack thereof...middle age growing pains, or just that the idea that a few other people out there had more qualifications for a job that I wanted....I just can't win.:(

    only about 1/4th of my plans ever work out, or I get started on something...get tired, and look for something else to do...or I just fall asleep and wait for the next day to just come and get over with...maybe I need a vacation, but I'm broke as hell since that damn strike.... :mad: and even the thought of having more toys to play with is bringing me down to the slumps. Everything was popping when I had that interveiw, I thought I would sell out and just start everything all over, but now I'm stuck again with a damn parking lot of cars that dont move, a run down house that needs almost everything done to it, and a wife that was hoping to move back to Japan and have me at a job where I wore a suit and tie...... and now the only only thing interesting on the computer is porn and having a beer with a few ciggs....

    I make good money, if I invested it right, I would be set in the long run, but I'm still crunching from paycheck to paycheck...as in limbo for the last 3 years... Right now I'm at $27 an hour, but if I got on flight status...I would only be up to $28 an hour....and while looking at that great pay, and then consider its all gone when the bills and mortgage is payed for....there's nothing left to even save or play with...:mad: and I've been slacking on real bills like the cars registration on the CRX...which hasn't moved in 3 years, but I'm still paying insurance on it and the civic that hasn't moved since last Sept. I guess I'm hoping for one of those TV shows to come out and pimp my rides or rebuild my crib...but I know thats also a pipe dream.

    Hell, life sucks, other people have it harder than me and they get by somehow, I'm not the only one in this situation, and I have the damn capabilities to get out of it, but I'm in a lazy rutt, and I can't find a damn reason why I should get out of the rutt....I got myself into it, but I don't even feel I want to get out of it....I would if there was a real reason, but since the strike for 7 weeks at work and the no trip to Japan this year, no sex, no seat time for the cars, no cashflow, no yard being done because to much rain, and tons of excuses.....that's all I have is excuses...I'll name my own problem, and I'll even come up with an excuse for that problem...I'm full of excuses....I smoke to much, drink too much, hell I'm happy nowdays with a full sixpack and then I call it a night.....I've done a 12 pack and I'm still just sitting there not even buzzed but a huge headache looming.....pop some damn Walmart ibuprofine(sp) and I'll finish a few more beers...

    And whats sad is the ony real happiness I have in the day is taking the wife shopping...if she wants something, then I'll go into debt to get it for her.....but when I get home and I see that insuffuciant funds charge in my bank account reach up to $200...then I just want to drink more to try to forget it....I got paid today $1154, and when the bank took their money, I saw I only had $899...and I had to pay for $300 in just the internet/phone/cable, and then another $160 for cell phone...just because I didn't pay last months bills so I could have something to put on that Z, everything will work out...I sold a set of rims, made the money to cover those bills, but I also have other bills in waiting status to pay....and then the bills will pile up again, I'll buy something stupid again and get deaper and deaper into debt.....but nothing shows up as being over due....cause I pay it off in time, and I end up working my butt off more to try to catch up...which makes me tired as fuck when I get home....just so I can keep up with the bills...and the lame process starts over again.....

    Upgrading cars.....that's my problem right...nope. Not at all. Too many cars right?....nope..not at all. The only car I really threw any cash at was the red Z...and even there I still haven't dumped enough into it to make a drain on my finances....Hell, I bought it for $1400, and Steve even loaned me money to get it, and I vouched that I would make up for it sometime, and I hoped that I have cleared his laon in some way over the years....and then it got hit by another car, so I used the $1500 for carbs for the AE86 that the wife bought, and wheels, and a few other toys....sold the AE86 and got some cash back and another car....still no money spent from my wallet on the cars, except tires...and they are cheap as hell. Hell the wife even bought the CRX and the Subaru for me....all I do is pay the registration, taxes, insurance, and even then I should be ahead,...but no...she bought the Jeep....but I bought all the parts for it, that drained my wallet....and the new Z, I traded a box of guages I had for years for it....and all I owe is $1500 out of $2250....and he still has enough stuff in that box to sell that will actually pay it off, and he will get a commission, his price for the Z, and I'll actually get some money back....hopefully;)

    Damn, if you've read up to this point of the rant from hell, then your bored or as lame as me....So where the hell is my money going too....I haven't really splurged on anything? Same TV since 1997, same bed and couch, but all the bills and taxes.....and just getting by everyday on overly payed jobs...and I still can just bearly scrape by. But granted, I dump over $150-200 into my 401K a week, and that still leaves me with 900-1200 paychecks...even with 7 weeks out of work, I've already made $43Ks to the begining of July...half a year, $43Ks...if I continue to bust ass, I might make $80's this year....but that 7 weeks drained everything from me....the stress of if I'm going back to work?, will my mortgage get paid? and what will happen if I get in an accident and cant work for a few more weeks?....I'm screwed, the wife is screwed, and so wil lthe dog....Help!!!, I'm just stuck in life, and I can't get out!!!

    Anyone wanna trade lives? I am soo glad I don't have kids, but I want them, can't have them still:( The dog is the only real kid I have, had her for 9 years, and if I did get the job in Japan, then I would have had to find a keeper for her for 180+ days....till she was ok to import into Japan. I got freinds, but prolly not that good of freinds that would take care of my dog for a half a year. Ohh well, enough ranting, if you read the whole thing this far, then I commend you.....good luck reading another drunken post by yours truelly.:p and if this lazieness keeps up, then expect a web-wide offer to pop-up that will make babies cry, men weep, and women to be re-virginized.....:eek:
     
  2. Airjockie

    Airjockie Watanabe Whore!!!

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    but on my last day off, I did download and watch all 27 episodes of Chobits...somehow, I felt a lot like that guy....in soo many ways....

    It made me smile:)
     
  3. Celerity

    Celerity Well-Known Member

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    Sounds like your panties are on backwards.

    What you're problem is, as you describe it, is Apathy. Remember my parent's house ? Apathy. They've got everything and no enthusiasm to do anything but watch TV and surf the web.

    These cars are doing the exact opposite that they should do for you. You are burdened by them and don't want to work on them. I work on cars so much that I never watch TV. You can't get me away from the tinkering. This weekend, for instance, I'm totally bummed because if it's gonna be 100 degrees (Like they are claiming) then the garage will be too hot to do anything.

    Same with the house. The house should be inspiring you to do things to / for it. You're lacking that inspiration because neither are exactly what you want. What you want is not a home in the middle of Meriden with a driveway full of half-completed projects. Two 87 Hondas and two 77 Datsun Zs. It's ok that you're not enthused by these things, they are _close_ to what you want, but not exactly. Learn to let go.

    The Civic was a prime example. I wanted .. really really wanted to do things to it. Now, the things I have to finish up are more like Projects, and I Wanna get into something else for a while. (Before you all think I'm a bum that never finishes a project, Japanese Imports have been my thing for over 12 years and I've finished quite a few nice projects) Hey, tastes aren't a choice - one day you'll find something and it will really tickle your fancy. For me it's been hot rods lately, which is totally out of character for me :)

    I called it "being stagnant". And it's true. All of you guys can't be Honda pros forever. You gotta move on and try something else . Even if it's Mitsubishis like Chris or more towards bikes or if it's completely out of cars all together (An ultralite?). It's about adapting and changing to become an overall more knowledgable cat.

    I started off in cars as a V8, american-only muscle kinda guy with sights set on a 1988 Cutlass Supreme. Humph, imagine that. If I had the same interest in Science (My 2nd leg) I would be pretty goddam impressive now. Or music. Shit, I have 10 years of Piano lessons under my belt. Can't even play a goddam scale now.

    When you fight off the change, you become miserable. I found myself miserably shopping for Honda parts one day. It's not that I didn't want to drive a nasty ass Honda, but I just ... lost interest.
     
  4. lil_red_rex

    lil_red_rex i do body work!

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    i kinda feel ur pain in a way clayton....i dont feel like doing anything.....the rex is outside screaming "swap me!!!!!!!" and i have been doing nothing but sleep.....waking up and going to work for 6-8 hrs a day....coming home to see my rex just sitting when it should be spinning by the beach......and i feel just like nothing..maybe its the hot weather.....youd think someone like me would be out "playing" or "hangin out" with my buddies from skool.....but honestly...nothing....im always checkin up on new swap posts (obviously had time to read ur long ass post lol) and just drinkin...eating..sleep...work...dreamin....i have tho made enough money for a dohc zc swap on the rex and the body work is completely done.....but for some reason....its just....not the same....maybe its heat...lol...hope u get back on ur feet the way i remember yah while swappin walts civic....lol...cause thats the last time i saw yah! lol....newayz....dont worry....ull hop back on workin on ur cars and havin some free time to do some cool stuff eventually...plenty of people are like that.....for instance.....my dad hasnt worked on a honda since he let his integra go in 2002...not one thing....even brings his jetta to the jiffy lube for a lowsey oil change when he always did his....all of sudden...while doin the body work on my car he wants to help out and do some metal fab and even wants to pull the d16 out....he rarely does anything but now hes all hyped up and wants to do stuff....im sure ull turn out the same way....just start doin what u love and want to do again....see yah dude;)
     
  5. totalburnout

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    Chin up my friend, the grass always appears greener on the otherside.

    Practice relaxation techniques and you'll be a world happier. If it means starting a new hobby and discontinuing another, so be it. If it means leaving your current means of income on a whim, for another job that is more appealing, then so be it.

    You only live life once, you have to atleast try to get the most out of it.

    Break the rut, break the cycle, and the happiness shall come again.
     
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    Celerity Well-Known Member

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    Try doing something else for a break. Something small and see if it appeals to you. Get back into model building for a few weeks.
     
  7. pissedoffsol

    pissedoffsol RETIRED

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    The grass IS greener on the other side of the fence. But if you piss on it, it will turn yellow :)
     
  8. TurboMirage

    TurboMirage YEEAAAHHH VIP

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    i thought that only applied to females? is there something you arent telling us ;)

    clayton, maybe its better to take the wife and dog out to the park for a few hours every day? do some daydreaming :)
     
  9. ScrapinSi

    ScrapinSi Senior Member

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    sounds to me like you are on your way to depression... Cheer up. Honestly... Consider getting rid of the cars. Get a Daily Driver, do the things to the house you want, make you and the wife happy... Then in a year or so, get back into cars... I think maybe you just have too much going on at once.
     
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