Well I'm back in Jersey.... I went to detox, relapsed the day I left.... moved to Florida, then moved back to NJ cause I figured my PO wouldn't like me being 1800 miles away. I went to rehab, left cause there was too much spiritual bullshit involved and have touched that shit since 2 days after I relapsed after detox. Regardless, I'm fucked, during my probation sentence, I was charged with two 2nd degree felonies on top of what is to be a violation of the 3rd degree felony I'm on probation for. Everyone swears I'm not going to prison but it's just hard to not believe it after all that and I'm not wasting another 20k on a lawyer. Reading up, if I just accept what the prosecutor/judge throw at me, I'd be looking at a 3-5 for the 3 felonies, all consecutive so I'd do 18 months, get out, probably violate parole and finish the other 18 months back in prison. I checked myself in with a phyciatrist and was diagnosed with extreme bi-polar/ manic depression and they want to put me on some ridiculous dosage of lithium. Some stupid bitch slammed into the drive side of my Civic on Monday and pushed me into a curb. We exchanged insurance info, cause I can't deal with police in NJ, due to felony warrants out of multiple jurisdictions.... she tried to file a hit and run. I finally decided to just walk into the police station like nothing was wrong... since I have a NYS driver's license now, gave him all her info and walked out. Her insurance company came and looked at the car, told me nothing and went on his way. I have no intention of having to pay my deductible to get this car fixed, if it's going through my insurance, it's going off of a cliff first so it's totaled. I asked my PO if I could move to NY, she told me absolutely not and she wants me to quit my job in NY, cause she doesn't like me leaving state. She says I'm an extreme flight risk after speaking with my PO from years ago... (when I moved to CO). I never told her I went to Florida either, what she doesn't know.... won't hurt me..... I have two months left of probation and I refuse to be convicted of any of my new charges before I sign my release for my current probation. Newark Police will not come get me unless I'm in that particular precints jurisdiction. The other one, well, I just won't have anymore run ins with 5-0 until the end of Sept. And that's that.