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Sort of a weird day.

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  1. 92stoccord

    92stoccord Big Member VIP

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    Thought I might share this with those who aren't on FB or didn't read it.

    I went and stood at a pile of sticks, nails and asbestos today. Under this rubble lied the first house I lived in, my fortress, the place I always felt safe, even though it was old and the locks didn't work, and it likely to catch on fire because of poor electrical work, and being heated by coal. I remember how I used to think that it would always be standing there at the corner. As I stood over it, I felt so empty and cold, like something inside me had died. Like a part of my life was still in there. I walked the same path I always did from the car to the door, but this time, there was no 2 story mid-19th century house, with a door that didn't fit, no leaky windows that as though you were looking through wavy glass. No mid 80's rusted car sitting in the driveway next to the pickup that didn't run. Everyone was gone. They had been gone for years, and as I walked back to my sedan, I realized, this was where my memories had been. It would never be the same. Though these memories came rushing back to me, I also remembered the place that everyone was at, and how, somehow, it was better than it was in my house where you could see the light in the basement through the knot hole in the 5th floor board in the hallway between the kitchen and the living room. As I made my way down the road, after leaving the wreckage, I realized, I still have these memories. They didn't get knocked down with my house, and I always will have them. They're something that will travel with me through my life. And I know that now that it's down, it marks the end of an chapter in my life. It reminds me that I need to do better than that. My childhood is gone, it's time to step up and be a man.




    Basically, the house I grew up in got torn down today, and it seems like it really turned the page into a new chapter in my life. Symbolizing that my childhood is over, and this is where I make or break it.
     
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  2. 99sidude

    99sidude Moderator Moderator VIP

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    I've had these feelings before. I was 20 when I moved out of the parents place for good. Though it sucks that the days of care free screwing around are over, it isn't all bad.
     
  3. TurboMirage

    TurboMirage YEEAAAHHH VIP

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    some of us are still care free and screwing around :)
     
  4. lswhitecivic

    lswhitecivic Senior Member

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    I had similar feelings last summer. I took a trip back to Chicago and while I was there I decided to go visit my old next door neighbors from the house I grew up in. I found out that the house had been declared inhabitable...apparently the last owner went into foreclosure and left a bathroom window up on the top floor.

    A water pipe burst and basically flooded the entire house because no one found it for a while. It hasn't been torn down yet...but I assume it will be because it will probably be cheaper to build a new house than to try and fix the house that was built back in like the 30s.

    The door was unlocked and I thought about going inside, but mold and possible unstable floors kept me from going inside. That was a sad day for me. I had to take a picture of the inhabitable message on the doors to show my parents and brothers.
     
  5. 90 accord

    90 accord Chicks dig the box Moderator VIP

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    anyone else expecting a punch line?
     
  6. INJEN78

    INJEN78 HS LEGEND

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    nope..memories are sometimes sad..but you just gotta look past the toward the future..
     
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    phyregod !!YTINASNI

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    Good stuff. +rep
     
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    I was expecting to be Fresh Princerolled.
     
  9. BigJ

    BigJ I'm just about that action Boss. VIP

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    Yeah man I feel ya. It's weird, but for the best.
     
  10. double0Si

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    Holy shit. I must have been living under a rock. I never new :(
     
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