Thanks all for the words of encouragement.
I think I'm at an advantage at my age. at 37 I have, and have had, a few people that rely on me. They rely on me to be my best and solve problems rapid fire. I take care of my aging mother's finances and lifestyle, I have a housewife, medical issues, and then the business that I've been independent on for over 10 years (And 6 years before that little break at Yale.. the last "steady" paycheck I ever saw)
Everyday I wake up and have to find work. I have to make that happen, no one else does. And I've been doing it for so long that it's not even a stress on me anymore. Furnaces breaking in the middle of winter, storms knocking out my PA home for weeks on end with no utilities or wood (And a Mustang convertible to get 8 miles to the nearest town). Challenges are just rapid-fire in my life.
So I think I'll be able to handle this better at my age than were I younger.
As far as the breastfeeding / overall child rearing, that's gonna be tough. We don't know if breast feeding will or won't work until the last minute. I'm doing a LOT of homework these days about native and primitive child rearing. And I, as always, lay down the groundwork for post collapse life. When it comes to ALL baby food items, it's all a bunch of shit. every baby product on the market is just terrible. And with the market strangulation of Chinese knock-offs around every corner - it's easier to just start with a holistic and natural process from the get-go.
Luckily, I live near many farms. I'm learning to make baby foods now (YUCK) and am pretty much doubling the budget for real food items and real doctors (Wanna talk about a challenge ? Try finding a delivery staff that won't force injections and registration paperwork on you. Try it.) (Luckily, I live near an Amish community so that may play a role)
But I bought my first crib this week. And that will go soon as well because I can't believe what these companies consider "safe". This safety gear is just terrible. I'd be better off with legos.
Finally, when I was a kid my car seat was zip tied to a roll cage. And after looking at the modern seats - I totally see why. This modern baby gear is just utter bullshit.