I'm tired of my lifestyle right now. I'm tierd of being up late all the time... my boss is pissed off at me for being late all the time. I've just never been a morning person. and the hour + drive doesn't help. Here it is almost 3am, and i'm still wide awake. I want to change this. I want to be more responsible and start working some normal hours again. I'm overweight, by a lot.... I've put on a solid 90 lbs since college... I was 185 back then. Now i'm 275. Because of it, I think it's really hindering a possible relationship right now. some days shes hot. some days shes cold. Hard to read... I don't know wtf is going on. She obviously likes me but there's something holding her back from having this go anywhere in terms of a relationship. We've had a couple dates and talk a lot, but like i said, sometimes she seems real into me, and others its like i don't even matter. Long story short, she's literally the hottest girl i know in person (at least to me, and that's all that matters). A few regs have seen her pics and can vouch. The easiest solution is to lose some weight, which is something i've wanted to do for a while now. Along with it, I've decided to quit smoking. They just went up another $1 a pack, and april first they are supposed to go up again, topping $7 a pack. It's just fucking stupid. And I'm sick of it. The plan: Over the next 3-5 days, i'm quitting smoking and doing some shopping for some equipment. I 'acquired' p90x from a friend. I need to get a pull up bar and some fixed-weight dumbells (i only have bars and plates... and those are not safe for some of these exercises). I also need to get a matt of some sort to go over the rug. If it warms up a little bit in the next couple days, i'm going to try to get a jog/brisk walk in every day... its bitter out today (so much for global warming...) and tomorrow isn't supposed to be much better, so hopefully wed-sun i can get some minor cardio in to get my lungs back to breathing real air. Since the course is outlined by starting on monday, i'm starting monday so i can keep track of where i am. I got all the sheets printed out and everything else ready to go. 3/30/09 starts day 1 of the program. july 1 will be my 90 day completion, just time time to enjoy the summer with a ripped body. I'm going to wait till the end to post pictures, but i plan to take a pic every day to document my progress. I took one tonight, and I don't think i need to share my before fat ass pic with a bunch of guys. lol I'll post 'em at the end of my cycle when i'm actually proud of my body and can laugh along with you guys at my old self. I'm just worried about throwing my back out again... I've had some bad back problems the past year or so... I pulled it once and it hasn't been right since. Frankly, it's probably half due to the fact that I'm a fat ass. so, hopefully my back will hold out to see this through. I went shopping yesterday for food and I got a lot of stuff from the nutrition guide, and plus i usually eat pretty healthy anyway. I rarely eat fast food, red meat, or fatty things.... I just eat too much of it and not at the right times. So, yeah yeah, i've had like 50 of these before... but i was just never really pissed off at myself before. This time I am. And I will succeede. goal: 225 by Jul 1 90 days -> shed 50 lbs. I'll probably lose 10+ the first week alone I lose weight pretty easily (just like i gain it pretty easily) I know you're only supposed to lose 1-2 lbs or whatever but i previewed the first workouts, and they are pretty damn intense. It will turn my body around pretty quickly. Plus, i have a LOT of fat, but i also have a lot of mass. at 185, i'm probably under 18% body fat (no idea for sure, but at 185, i'm SKINNY... not James skinny, but skinny) So, wish me luck. a new day has begun.