I realize it but i can't get over me working to pay for her (our) goals while I sit back and put my life on hold and now while I'm about to enter a new chapter in MY career in sales I'm abandoning it.
I didn't realize how much I was connected to my community and dealership with all the exposure they've given me, TV commercials, local lead groups, banks now calling me to help customers, local radio interviews, local event interviews....we attend all of that stuff and it's kind of cool going place and being recognized and helping me with my career to go somewhere other than sales.
Granted I know I'll be back blah blah she'll be a vet and we'll happily ever after but with me being alone for the last year I got to admit......I like it. I've never been single living alone so as you can imagine it started with being lonely to now getting out and being myself and enjoying life MY way.
I don't know man. Being straight forward I'm going to California to see if we can be happy with the life I want and the life she wants. The separation has taken a toll and I want to give it a real good shot at falling in love with her again. I miss her but when I'm with her it's not like we used to be.