It's kinda simple.
I walk into the liqour store, pick up a 30 pack and/or whatever I want, walk up to the counter. Place my choice on there. The dude tells me the price, I pay and walk out.
But, the 30 pack is almost gone (I have 7 left) and I'm sober again. I just happened to randomly wake up and I can't sleep.
I need a job to make money. I need a car to get to work. I'd be job hunting if it weren't for my car being without a right rear suspension and it really is just too cold to be riding that bike everywhere or walking. This is the season of thanking... Thanks again UPS, fuckers. I'm too broke to be taking the bus because of my mistakes, thanks Nj, for charging me rediculous amounts of money for bullshit, yes BS.
But I don't do anything anymore. I don't go out, I don't party, I rarely drink anymore (this was a special occasion, I'll finish the rest tomorrow), I rarely smoke anymore because of probation. I have no girlfriend and I literally gave up on the chicks I was fucking, I just don't want THEM anymore, I'll be honest and say, I'll call them when I want some butt for now but not for too much longer.
I'm not dissappointed with what I'm doing with myself, just bored. Even with a simple job I'd be semi-happy because I'd have something to do. If it weren't for certain situations I'd be in school. Which I still might do.
I still have a lot to do in the next few years, I'll figure out my plan soon.