what happened with that? just thought it would be best to part ways?
She thought it would be better "just to be friends." I've never had that conversation given to me before and I've never actually had a girl who I didn't force to break up with, break up with me before.
Its an awkward feeling. I started off the relationship not knowing how much I wanted her or how serious I wanted it to be and didn't put in the effort.
She started off wanting me every second of her life and then about a month ago something snapped. We went out on a romantic dinner, got into a fight afterwards when she was ignorant and said something completely stupid and hurtful, then she gave me the beej before sleep. Next day I meet one of her aunts that I hadn't met before and she goes off to a broadway play with the girls in her family. I sit and talk with her dad for a bit and then go home.
That night I went to a friend's grad. party. She wanted to come see me, but then acted weird and told me to have fun with my friends. I asked her if she was sure and she said she was going to go out with her friends. We break up the next afternoon after not talking for the longest time since we were together.
Then we were never officially together after that, but I asked her to try to make it work. We went for a romantic weekend at the beach, a dinner on the lake, to the new batman movie, and just to chill out. Then the other day when I called her out on not putting the effort in and calling me when she said she would (that used to be me not putting in the effort) she said that she couldn't keep hurting me. She feels that something is missing. And now I'm here.
It was probably for the better, but I loved her. I don't know if I want her because I can't have her or for what reason. We had a lot of things seperately our lives - she came from a well-to-do family where her dad is a big time lawyer and she doesn't understand the value of money and I came from humble beginning. She goes out to dinner five or more nights a week, many times. She could also be very ignorant, stubborn, and judgemental. When she put the effort in, she was great and took care of me.