Background...
about 2-3 years ago she had some complications....actually...since I've know and have been married to here...she's always in the hospital for something....but the last time it was endomitrious around the colon, a few fibroids in the uturis, and a few cystes on the on the olvaries...huge operation...and I've been sexless since..anyways....
just when she was getting into the mood again to do some things...more crap is happening. She started college courses for ESL (englis ans a second language), and she's been almost the prefect wife (except for the sex)...but I can live with that...but now her body is torturing her like crazy. She got a 65% on her first test...and it seemed like the very next day she became ...uhmmm....well...hard to discribe...I know it not the test that made her this way...but it sure seems like it...since she's Japanese and all....
She woke up one day, and all of a sudden her right leg was dead...as if she had no muscle control in it. And her left leg was numb. I gave her a massage, and she was able to walk a little. Then she goes to sleep again, and the same thing...dead leg and the other numb. After a breif visit to a doctors associate that I goto for my back..he rushed her to the X-ray machine to see what he can see in his office....nothing. She's able to limp around now, and move and do things...but still, her right legjust wond move like her left leg, and parts of her left leg is numb. The first thought that the doctor had was it's a herniated disk in the spinal colume. But she has no pain. So the next step....
We are rushed to the next available MRI, and get the scans done...and nothing. The MRI shows nothing... so then were refered t a neurologist(sp) and he looks at her, and at the MRI, and he wants more test done...liver samples, blood work, and a head and neck MRI to go with the lumbar MRI tat she just had...except this time with a die so they can see other things. That all fine and dandy....but the wife still wanted to go to classes...so I took her and picked her up last night, and I was planning to go take here to get the blood work done today...but she went to bed and she called me and said she can't move.
I get home this morning after work, and she's in pain to even move her neck, and her right side of the shoulder area is in pain. So I ask her if she wants to go to the hospital and she declined, and she got another massage, and I cooked her some breakfast and got her some flowers and a card to cheer her up...and got her some back pain medicen and she's sarting to feel a litle better....but now I'm worried, because she still want to go to school tommorrow night so she doen't miss a damn class. Plus we have to go get all the test done tomorow morning that we planned to get done today...so I'll have no sleep again, and I'll be worried on how she will wake up the next day.
Now for the rant part of this post.....
How come? Why? Is it me?.....
My dog is old, she has arthitis in the rear knee's, and hip displaysia (rotted away hip joints)... me and the wife try to make the dogs life as fullfilling as possible...pampering her and taking care of her as much as possible. Then I have a back problem where I'm in pain every fucking day, I was doing 8-16 advils just to get thru work, and I'm currently doing physical theripy for the last few months, I'm not getting better, but I am off the advil and on oxaprozin.... And now my wife...with her new problems..... plus I have the cars that needs a ton of work that I can never get to...and a house that needs attention like a muther. I only make a max amount of money, enought to actually just give everything up and drop cars and motorsports, sell everything I have for cars off and buy a bland car for everything... and the only illegal crap I do is wank off to internet porn...if that is illegal in ct?!?!?!... plus the only other real bad habits I do is smoke cigarettes and drink corona's.... sure my projects are piling up, and I'm always looking for more projects, and then two days ago my awesome Sony computer dies and I'm posting from a laptop (hard ass hell to type on)....but why is it me?....why do I always have bad luck? Sure...other people out in the world have worse luck than me...but they are the ones that depend on my tax dollars to survive..and I'm the one who does pay taxes, I'm the one that puts in 32-60 hours a week, I had my company's union strike this year for 7 weeks, and I lost a lot of money, but I've worked my ass off and I'm already past $65K's for this year..and the next 3 months...I hope to break $80K's.....Why? Why? Why?
sink your feet into my shoes for a day.....I beg you....I would trade anybody their life for a day...... I build helicopters, I have to make sure they are up to blueprints and to safety spec's everyday, I limp and hobble around and try to find new ways to use my body to the way I could 5 years ago...I can only lift 25 lbs max now due to my back, but I have to beg co-workers to help me when I have to torque a bolt that requires over 75 ftlbs or more...I try to take care of the wife, dog and house the best I can, with what I can.
And for the life of me...WTF....What the friggen fuck?...why can I have 7 beers, type a long ass post, and have it come out with very few imperfections in typo's, contain your attention span, and sound pathetic? I've already cracked open the 8th beer, I've already spilled my problems to thousands of internet people's, I've purged the heavy crap off my chest that I wanted to in the first 3 paragraph's, and yet I continue to divulge more info on my crappy life. I ought to become the first drunk autobiographer or something like that...if I have a keyboard infront of me, beer in one hand, a cig in my mouth and my bills paid off......I could prolly write a full book about my jacking off to asian porn tendancies with the other hand.....althought ther could be too many sequels, but I bet you would buy and read them...hehe
Anyway's...thanks for getting this far on one of my rants again...I actually feel better just getting it off my chest and I want to get the wife to her tests faster tommorrow. Peace.
/end another endless rant....
about 2-3 years ago she had some complications....actually...since I've know and have been married to here...she's always in the hospital for something....but the last time it was endomitrious around the colon, a few fibroids in the uturis, and a few cystes on the on the olvaries...huge operation...and I've been sexless since..anyways....
just when she was getting into the mood again to do some things...more crap is happening. She started college courses for ESL (englis ans a second language), and she's been almost the prefect wife (except for the sex)...but I can live with that...but now her body is torturing her like crazy. She got a 65% on her first test...and it seemed like the very next day she became ...uhmmm....well...hard to discribe...I know it not the test that made her this way...but it sure seems like it...since she's Japanese and all....
She woke up one day, and all of a sudden her right leg was dead...as if she had no muscle control in it. And her left leg was numb. I gave her a massage, and she was able to walk a little. Then she goes to sleep again, and the same thing...dead leg and the other numb. After a breif visit to a doctors associate that I goto for my back..he rushed her to the X-ray machine to see what he can see in his office....nothing. She's able to limp around now, and move and do things...but still, her right legjust wond move like her left leg, and parts of her left leg is numb. The first thought that the doctor had was it's a herniated disk in the spinal colume. But she has no pain. So the next step....
We are rushed to the next available MRI, and get the scans done...and nothing. The MRI shows nothing... so then were refered t a neurologist(sp) and he looks at her, and at the MRI, and he wants more test done...liver samples, blood work, and a head and neck MRI to go with the lumbar MRI tat she just had...except this time with a die so they can see other things. That all fine and dandy....but the wife still wanted to go to classes...so I took her and picked her up last night, and I was planning to go take here to get the blood work done today...but she went to bed and she called me and said she can't move.
I get home this morning after work, and she's in pain to even move her neck, and her right side of the shoulder area is in pain. So I ask her if she wants to go to the hospital and she declined, and she got another massage, and I cooked her some breakfast and got her some flowers and a card to cheer her up...and got her some back pain medicen and she's sarting to feel a litle better....but now I'm worried, because she still want to go to school tommorrow night so she doen't miss a damn class. Plus we have to go get all the test done tomorow morning that we planned to get done today...so I'll have no sleep again, and I'll be worried on how she will wake up the next day.
Now for the rant part of this post.....
How come? Why? Is it me?.....
My dog is old, she has arthitis in the rear knee's, and hip displaysia (rotted away hip joints)... me and the wife try to make the dogs life as fullfilling as possible...pampering her and taking care of her as much as possible. Then I have a back problem where I'm in pain every fucking day, I was doing 8-16 advils just to get thru work, and I'm currently doing physical theripy for the last few months, I'm not getting better, but I am off the advil and on oxaprozin.... And now my wife...with her new problems..... plus I have the cars that needs a ton of work that I can never get to...and a house that needs attention like a muther. I only make a max amount of money, enought to actually just give everything up and drop cars and motorsports, sell everything I have for cars off and buy a bland car for everything... and the only illegal crap I do is wank off to internet porn...if that is illegal in ct?!?!?!... plus the only other real bad habits I do is smoke cigarettes and drink corona's.... sure my projects are piling up, and I'm always looking for more projects, and then two days ago my awesome Sony computer dies and I'm posting from a laptop (hard ass hell to type on)....but why is it me?....why do I always have bad luck? Sure...other people out in the world have worse luck than me...but they are the ones that depend on my tax dollars to survive..and I'm the one who does pay taxes, I'm the one that puts in 32-60 hours a week, I had my company's union strike this year for 7 weeks, and I lost a lot of money, but I've worked my ass off and I'm already past $65K's for this year..and the next 3 months...I hope to break $80K's.....Why? Why? Why?
sink your feet into my shoes for a day.....I beg you....I would trade anybody their life for a day...... I build helicopters, I have to make sure they are up to blueprints and to safety spec's everyday, I limp and hobble around and try to find new ways to use my body to the way I could 5 years ago...I can only lift 25 lbs max now due to my back, but I have to beg co-workers to help me when I have to torque a bolt that requires over 75 ftlbs or more...I try to take care of the wife, dog and house the best I can, with what I can.
And for the life of me...WTF....What the friggen fuck?...why can I have 7 beers, type a long ass post, and have it come out with very few imperfections in typo's, contain your attention span, and sound pathetic? I've already cracked open the 8th beer, I've already spilled my problems to thousands of internet people's, I've purged the heavy crap off my chest that I wanted to in the first 3 paragraph's, and yet I continue to divulge more info on my crappy life. I ought to become the first drunk autobiographer or something like that...if I have a keyboard infront of me, beer in one hand, a cig in my mouth and my bills paid off......I could prolly write a full book about my jacking off to asian porn tendancies with the other hand.....althought ther could be too many sequels, but I bet you would buy and read them...hehe
Anyway's...thanks for getting this far on one of my rants again...I actually feel better just getting it off my chest and I want to get the wife to her tests faster tommorrow. Peace.
/end another endless rant....