I'm TOTALLY stoked. I finally snapped out of this weekend, when I was away. I was sitting in my stank-ass motel room and reviewing the little things I had on me.
I packed my bike bags because I was going to take the bike. But then a "storm" approached (Which was a sham) and I wound up going up with my mom in her car. so I had nothing to do in the motel room.
I was reviewing emails and texts and getting an idea of what was going on. I realised that several times in her messages she told me how much she liked me, but it never dawned on me. My last girlfriend NEVER (Well, not in about 4 or so years) told me anything good about me. She never offered any encouragement or anything. And this girl was doing that. I kinda forgot, that I forgot, where I stand.
And after coming home, she thought I was being distant about us because of how I was acting. And it depressed her to a point of wanting to give up. I turned on the TV in my motel room, and watched one of the Tom Selleck episodes of Friends. And it all clicked.
The age thing was, or isn't, that big of a deal. I'm a bit fucked up, but I'm not "boiler explosion" ugly, I'm not a couch potato, and I'm not some old, stay-at-home fuck that collects DVDs. Regardless of age, she prolly likes me because I'm cool and can actually accept the fact that I am the way I am because I have experience.
YAY