Celerity
Well-Known Member
ok: Update from the home front. THIS JUST IN
Someone here told me that I may not like what I see behind the huge emotional walls. The first few bricks are coming down, and I'm trying REALLY HARD to put them back.
There is some evil in the world that really shouldn't be underestimated. I find that people do horrible things to cute little girls that you read about in the bible. While my own brand of sinister is also pretty fuckin dark, The difference is that I have exposed myself to people who really weren't interested - and furthermore, didn't mirror my mind and play off of it until it snowballed out of control.
Hers did snowball out of control.
Family ? Yeah. I have to kill these people. It's not a family. It's a fucking cult. These people disgust me to tears, and are really making me consider something I don't appreciate: My own anger.
But we had a very nice time Friday night, after I posted. I took her to the lake and watched the fog roll in . We had some decent moments. Things moved well forward. She got sober, wanted to go home. Then I find at 3:00 am she's not only awake, but got an offer to go to a party (I call them rape parties, for a very clear reason) and drink more. She hurt herself more that night and came back.
Had some sweet moments online, but pushed off my offer to come up and spend time with her. Then I found out she was back at another rape party boozing it up. She left me online saying "I'm going to do horrible things to myself again, you won't like it and you won't recognise me (sic)" I just told her "Have fun"
Now I need to know if this sort of thing is a cry out for help, or if it's a cry out for attention. Both need a different response. Oh, and this girl, even sober, is very ... "welcoming" of me.
Someone here told me that I may not like what I see behind the huge emotional walls. The first few bricks are coming down, and I'm trying REALLY HARD to put them back.
There is some evil in the world that really shouldn't be underestimated. I find that people do horrible things to cute little girls that you read about in the bible. While my own brand of sinister is also pretty fuckin dark, The difference is that I have exposed myself to people who really weren't interested - and furthermore, didn't mirror my mind and play off of it until it snowballed out of control.
Hers did snowball out of control.
Family ? Yeah. I have to kill these people. It's not a family. It's a fucking cult. These people disgust me to tears, and are really making me consider something I don't appreciate: My own anger.
But we had a very nice time Friday night, after I posted. I took her to the lake and watched the fog roll in . We had some decent moments. Things moved well forward. She got sober, wanted to go home. Then I find at 3:00 am she's not only awake, but got an offer to go to a party (I call them rape parties, for a very clear reason) and drink more. She hurt herself more that night and came back.
Had some sweet moments online, but pushed off my offer to come up and spend time with her. Then I found out she was back at another rape party boozing it up. She left me online saying "I'm going to do horrible things to myself again, you won't like it and you won't recognise me (sic)" I just told her "Have fun"
Now I need to know if this sort of thing is a cry out for help, or if it's a cry out for attention. Both need a different response. Oh, and this girl, even sober, is very ... "welcoming" of me.